This weekend has been a bit complicated in my mind. My beloved wife has been worried about me and it seems that she sees in me something I am too accustomed to notice. It seems that in her eyes, I am not a happy person, and it seems that there is some truth on it. I was thinking that it is difficult to express happiness, even though being with her and my little monster is the only thing I need in life. I should eliminate distractions, I feel that my life is like a puzzle with missing parts now. so, I am trying to structure little by little and starting with what I can manage the best, my body. I guess, I can be a bit patient about it and work on that. I need to go back to the pool ASAP.